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Ponedjeljak 9 Ševval 1438

Jul. 3rd, 2017 | 01:40 pm
music: Satie - Rosicrucian music

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Moon

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Adam

The Sun is in 11 Cancer (in my 10th house): A Chinese woman nursing a baby whose aura reveals him to be the reincarnation of a great teacher. (Symbol for 12 Cancer from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 12Sco23 (in my 2nd house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 18, Sphere of the Ether and the Meteors, Center of Fire, letter Tā, The Seizer (Al-Qābiḍ).

Lunar phase: First Quarter - Action (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

Overnight, Mars entered my 11th house. Early this morning, the Moon transited my natal Sun (in my 2nd house). In the late morning, the Moon entered my 3rd house. In about 2 hours, the Moon will transit my natal Neptune (in my 3rd house).

I have obviously relaxed a bit about writing here regularly.

Since I last wrote, I have continued to prepare for the coming semester and have also made some tentative moves toward pursuing a scholarly research agenda.

Mainly I am continuing the process of reflecting on the range of my activities over the past 15 years or so, seeking some healing around issues of greater and lesser degrees of academic productivity versus time and energy spent on projects that are meaningful to me personally.

Amid lingering concerns about the time and energy required to do so, I have decided to resume some astrological projects that I had laid aside because of work commitments (or because of guilt related to possibly missing more oportunities to demonstrate scholarly productivity because of diverting my attention in other directions).

One of the projects I am currently pursuing is to resume my re-reading of Rudhyar's book on the astrological houses. I am currently reviewing and taking notes on his chapter on the 6th house, which has to do with servanthood and discipleship. Characteristically for Rudhyar, this function of this house has to do with growth through crisis. While reviewing this chapter, I began to think about the transit of Uranus through my 6th house and its connection with my (mis)adventures in the Amma org. On this (re)consideration of that period, I paid attention not only to the conjunctions of transiting Uranus to my natal 6th hosue planets, but also to the aspects formed by transiting Uranus to other planets in my chart. What I discovered was that my participation in the Amma org followed a period in which transiting Uranus squared natal Venus. I recalled having the thought, as I was preparing to leave my former position in my former city, "Maybe I'll have an affair." It seems as if Uranus may have been tugging at Venus to try to get my attention around some energies that might come into play later.

I have been over this many times, in part because the timing was so precise and symbolism so clear, but my meeting of X and my introduction to the Amma org came when transiting Uranus was conjunct natal Jupiter in Pisces, and Uranus in fact stationed retrograde right on my natal Jupiter (the image I have of that is one of burning a hole in paper by concentrating the rays of the sun through a magnifying glass). That was the blissful and intoxicating beginning of that initiatory process. The painful portion came when transiting Uranus was conjunct my natal Chiron, which featured another retrograde station. Meanwhile, transiting Uranus was opposing natal Uranus in Virgo in the 12th house, a classic marker of the onset of midlife crisis. Because of Uranus's retrograde motion and the proximity of Jupiter and Chiron in my natal chart, Uranus transited my natal Jupiter once again. This coincided with my hopes of a repair of my failing friendship with X and with our trip to Amma's November program in Michigan that year (2004). We were able to experience some enjoyable moments on that trip, but my trust in our friendship was clearly faltering. Its definitive end came when (now direct) Uranus transited my natal Chiron once again.

While transiting Uranus was still in range of Chiron (intermittently by retrograde and direct motion), it began to oppose natal Pluto in Virgo in the 12th house. What I hadn't seen before was how this opposition coincided with ups and downs, and presence and absence, in my friendship with Y, which appears to have serving a related but distinct archetypal purpose from my friendship with X.

Around the time that Uranus was leaving my 6th house and entering upon the final third of Pisces in my 7th house, my mother died. That event showed up the failures of satsang and of my (now struggling) friendship with Y to provide the support that I previously believed them to be able to provide during the latter stages of my mother's illness. The next significant aspect from transiting Uranus began at that time, when Uranus squared my natal Moon in Sagittarius in my 4th house. This was not about reaching out toward new relationships, but rather about reviewing my experiences of maternal nurturing from a different, less personal perspective. I began Rosen work at that time and my friendship with Y faded steadily. He moved to the West Coast later that year.

What I gained from this re-examination of this period is the sense that a particular kind of process had played itself and then other processes began. It makes sense to me that I would miss the intensity of period and that it would remain a point of reference (as all deep initiatory experiences will do), but it also reassures me that I needn't feel that I have to undergo that kind of intensity again in order to have further experiences of growth. Part of the attraction of that intensity was that it felt as if so much potent energy was coming at me from the outside that I needed to do was to ride along with it and some sort of transformation was likely to occur. That may be true for part of processes such as those, but then it seems inevitable that there will be some sort of crash (or more than one crash or disappointment) and the next part of the process will feel alienating and like an uphill climb.


Peace,

KH

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Utorak 3 Ševval 1438

Jun. 27th, 2017 | 06:15 pm

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mars

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Aaron & John

The Sun is in 6 Cancer (in my 10th house): Two nature spirits dancing under the moonlight. (Symbol for 7 Cancer from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 28Leo36 (in my 12th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 12, The Second Sky, Sky of Jupiter and House of Moses, letter Ḍād, The Knowing (Al-‘Alīm).

Lunar phase: Crescent - Expansion (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About 10 minutes after akšam (magrib), the Moon will enter Virgo (in my 12th house). About a half hour before izlazak Sunca (šuruk), the Moon will transit my natal Uranus (in my 12th house). About 5 minutes after izlazak Sunca (šuruk), the Moon will transit my natal Pluto (in my 12th house).

I haven't written in about a month (not that anyone reads what I write anyway). In fact, the lunar mansion and lunar phase are what they were the last time I wrote.

I fasted for Ramazan, attended džuma weekly, attended teravih for Laylat ul-Qadr, and attended bajram ('eid) prayer. I didn't attend any iftars at the mosque because my experiences with doing that last year were interesting but somewhat awkward.

The "liberal" mosque in Germany has received quite a bit of attention in the news. The imam at the Bosnian mosque seems to have been alluding to the increasing prevalence of, and publicity around, progressive mosque communities by making negative remarks about homosexuality, women leading prayers, and liberalism generally. I'm not sure if these are his personal convictions or if there is some pressure within the Bosnian-American religious leadership to "offer guidance" on these issues. Along with the reinforcement of mainstream conservative Islamic perspectives, I note an absence of critique of obvious abuses of Islamic traditions among militant extremist groups. It appears to be a case of trying to maintain control by denigrating vulnerable progressive subcommunities within Islam rather than taking a stand against obvious abuses of power.

I have kept quiet about the imam's criticisms of those progressives who are receiving public attention because I don't want to appear to be inviting people in my environment to discourage me from attending. It is paradoxical perhaps, given the struggles I have had to contend with from my conservative Catholic mother, that I don't immediately boycott the Bosnian mosque. On the other hand, there is something about just showing up and taking my place as a man among other men that seems to be helping me to heal somewhat around issues of, as it were, "socially constructed masculinity." The other men in the mosque either leave me to occupy my space or including me in greetings that they also share with others, and somehow that is good enough for now.

Today I went to Rosen for the first time since before Ramazan. As we were exploring a place along my spine that felt internally as if it were knotted or somewhat ridged, it began to open up and I had a quick series of visions of myself praying at the mosque. That helped to open up an experience of inner space and integration that had been missing when I had arrived for the session. It seems that there are aspects of Islamic ritual that are inscribed positively within my body, despite whatever ideological or political differences I may have with aspects of the public expression of Islam. Interestingly in this connection, I have begun to read Scott Kugle's book about the body in Islam.

I have a few pages left and then I will be finished with my reading of the Mathnavi. Reading several hundred verses a day became a central element of my spiritual practice during Ramazan. It is a difficult and, in some ways, an offensive and prejudiced text, but it does seem to contain some practical advice for staying with the twists and turns of one's path. I think that I have achieved some healing of issues related to my spiritual path through studying it. I have also found it to be healing to read Mark Sedwick's book on Traditionalism, with which I am almost through.

Today I had that the thought that I might be able to convert a portion of an article that has been in a stuck place into a conference presentation for next season. I hope to begin to pursue that within the next week or so.


Peace,

KH

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Srijeda 5 Ramazan 1438

May. 30th, 2017 | 09:45 pm
music: Cauchemar - Cain

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mercury

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Jesus

The Sun is in 9 Gemini (in my 9th house): An airplane performing a nose dive. (Symbol for 10 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 21Leo51 (in my 12th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): the Moon has passed through mansion 11, The First Sky, Sky of Saturn, Sky of the Visited House and of the “Lotus of the Extreme Limit,” House of Abraham, letter Yā, The Lord (Ar-Rabb), and is now in mansion 12, The Second Sky, Sky of Jupiter and House of Moses, letter Ḍād, The Knowing (Al-‘Alīm).

Lunar phase: Crescent - Expansion (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About 30 minutes before podne (zuhr), the Moon will enter Virgo (in my 12th house).

A quiet day at home. I realized at one point that this is the first day since Ramadan began that I had been at home alone for most of the day.


Peace,

KH

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Utorak 4 Ramazan 1438

May. 29th, 2017 | 09:02 pm
music: Cosey Fanni Tutti - The Secret Touch

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mars

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Aaron & John

The Sun is in 8 Gemini (in my 9th house): A quiver filled with arrows. (Symbol for 9 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 7Leo36 (in my 11th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 10, The Sphere of Stations, Sky of Fixed Stars, Sun of Paradise and Roof of Hell, letter Shīn, The Powerful (Al-Muqtadīr)

Lunar phase: Crescent - Expansion (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

Overnight, the Moon will transit my natal Mars (in my 11th house). In the late afternoon, the Moon will enter my 12th house.

Continuing to read the Mathnavi. Did some astrological work today. A bit of practicing the piano. Some work on Arabic and Bosnian. Several cat naps.


Peace,

KH

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Ponedjeljak 3 Ramazan 1438

May. 28th, 2017 | 09:56 pm
music: Corey Lento - The Last Days

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Moon

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Adam

The Sun is in 7 Gemini (in my 9th house): Aroused strikers surround a factory. (Symbol for 8 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 23Can49 (in my 11th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 9, The Sphere without Stars, The Zodical Towers, letter Jīm, The Independent, The Rich (Al-Ghanī)

Lunar phase: Crescent - Expansion (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

This past afternoon, the Moon entered my 11th house. A couple of minutes after akšam (magrib), the Moon entered its Crescent phase, whose keyword is Expansion. (The Moon was at 22Can50 in my 11th house and the Sun was at 7Gem50 in my 9th house.) In the morning, the Moon will enter Leo. In the afternoon, the Moon will transit my natal North Node (in my 11th house).

I skipped writing yesterday. I was tired after fasting, and cooking while fasting, and then cleaning up afterward. I decided to stay home to pray jacija ('iša') rather than go to the mosque for teravih. I'm also staying in tonight.

I have set myself a goal of reading 30 pages of the Mathnavi each day. So far I have been able to keep that up.


Peace,

KH

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Subota 1 Ramazan 1438

May. 26th, 2017 | 08:42 pm
music: CTI (Chris & Cosey) - Invision

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Saturn

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Abraham

The Sun is in 5 Gemini (in my 9th house): Workmen drilling for oil. (Symbol for 6 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 23Gem13 (in my 10th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 7, The Throne, letter Qā, The All-Encompassing (Al-Muḥīṭ)

Lunar phase: New Moon - Emergence (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

In the morning, the Moon will enter Cancer (in my 10th house).

So, Ramazan begins. Džuma was good today. There was no mention of anything controversial: just traditional teachings about Ramazan and practical announcements. This is perhaps both a strength and a weakness of this particular mosque. On the one hand, it is seldom offensive. On the other, if one wants to reflect on current events, one needs to turn to other sources. (It seems to me that the negative mention of LGBT issues a couple of months ago was probably in response to the publicity surrounding the marriage of two men from Bosnia in St. Louis. I think it would have been better to say nothing at all than to say in the khutbah that this "not normal," but that is utlimately all that was said.)

I could go to teravih this evening, but I'm feeling tired and am planning to go to bed early instead.


Peace,

KH

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Petak/Džuma 30 Ša'ban 1438

May. 25th, 2017 | 09:29 pm
music: PGR - Oceanic & Atmospheric

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Venus

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Joseph

The Sun is in 5 Gemini (in my 9th house): Workmen drilling for oil. (Symbol for 6 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 8Gem26 (in my 9th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 6, The Form, letter Khā, The Wise (Al-Ḥakīm)

Lunar phase: New Moon - Emergence (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About 50 minutes after midnight, Mercury will enter my 9th house. In the morning, the Moon will enter my 10th house.

Worked on some projects at home this past day.


Peace,

KH

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Četvrtak 29 Ša'ban 1438

May. 25th, 2017 | 06:18 am
music: evoke scurvee - dist

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Jupiter

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Moses

The Sun is in 4 Gemini (in my 9th house): A revolutionary magazine asking for action. (Symbol for 5 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 28Tau45 (in my 9th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): the Moon has passed through mansion 4, Al-jawhar-al-habâï, The materia prima, letter Ḥā, The Last (Al-’Ākhir), and is now in mansion 5, The Universal Body, letter Ghayn, The Manifest (Aẓ-Ẓāhir)

Lunar phase: Balsamic - Release (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

In about 2 hours, the Moon will enter Gemini (in my 9th house). In the afternoon, the Moon will enter its New Moon phase, whose keyword is Emergence. (The Moon and sun will be at 4Gem46 in my 9th house).

I went to bed early last evening without writing first.

Yesterday was the first day off contract for the summer. I did some preparation for a course I will be teaching in the fall, did a bit of practicing at the piano (not enough, of course: never enough), and went to see my financial adviser. Did a bit of work with Bosnian and Arabic. (I have finally broken into Chapter 8 of Thackston's An Introduction to Koranic and Classical Arabic. I had been over the first several chapters a few times and then had lost the thread of it because of interruptions. Perhaps this time I will complete the book.)

I have also been calculating the timing of several astrological cycles over my lifetime and noting significant events that have occurred as I can remember them. The cycles I am using are Rudhyar's progressed Ascendant (which he calls the Point of Self), transiting Saturn, and progressed Moon. I find it interesting that the Moon's transits of its mansions coincide with the Sun's transits of the degrees of the zodiac, while the progressed Moon moves at about the same the rate as transiting Saturn. In traditional astrology, of course, Saturn signified the outer limit of the planetary system.


Peace,

KH

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Srijeda 28 Ša'ban 1438

May. 23rd, 2017 | 09:13 pm
music: Tholen - Sternklang

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mercury

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Jesus

The Sun is in 3 Gemini (in my 9th house): Holly and mistletoe reawaken old memories of Christmas. (Symbol for 4 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 7Tau51 (in my 8th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 3, The Universal Nature, letter ‘Ayn, The Interior (Al-Bāṭin)

Lunar phase: Balsamic - Release (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

Overnight, the Moon will enter my 9th house.

Finished up some school business via email. The faculty search is still unresolved: a verbal offer was made to the candidate on Friday and he asked for some time to consider it. I have not heard an update yet.

There is, of course, the incident in Manchester. Time will tell what damage is to be done in the name of security and "standing up" for "our" values. Who knows how long healing for the victims and for those left behind will take.

My husband works a long day on Tuesdays. I am therefore on my own for the large meal of the day, which is either lunch or dinner, depending on my preference. This past day I decided to go to the Bosnian restaurant in Hartford. I had a pljeskavica, which was pretty great.

This past day I also started to work through a counterpoint text I will need to know for one of my classes in the fall.


Peace,

KH

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Utorak 27 Ša'ban 1438

May. 22nd, 2017 | 09:22 pm
music: Aarktica - Corpse Reviver No. 2

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mars

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Aaron & John

The Sun is in 2 Gemini (in my 9th house): The garden of the Tuileries in Paris. (Symbol for 3 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 23Ari10 (in my 8th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 2, The Guarded Tablet, The Universal Soul, letter Hā, The One Who Calls Forth (Al-Bā‘ith)

Lunar phase: Balsamic - Release (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

In the morning, the Moon will enter my 8th house.

Did some work this past day. Tired.


Peace,

KH

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