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Apr. 13th, 2016 | 08:56 pm

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Jupiter

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Moses

Lunar phase: Crescent - Expansion (Phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

The Sun is in 24 Aries (in my 8th house): The possibility for man to gain experience at two levels of being. (Symbol for 25 Aries from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

Just before midnight, the Moon will enter its First Quarter phase, whose keyword is Action. (The Moon will be in Cancer in my 11th house and the Sun will be in Aries in my 8th house.) In the morning, the Moon will enter Leo (in my 11th house). About a half hour after akšam (magrib), the Moon will transit my natal North Node (in my 11th house).

My father should be arriving in the afternoon for a visit of several days.

This past day, I examined my 15th year through the lens of Kennet Gillman's astrological approach. In order to verify some details, I took out my old scrapbook. When I was 15 I gave my first solo piano recital. I also participated in a competition for the first time, in which I placed second. The teen who won first prize that year had gone to the Juilliard preparatory program and had already played as soloist with an orchestra. Over the next couple of years, he and I were rivals for honors in a couple of other competitions.

Naturally, at the time, I wasn't as aware of class markers as I am now. Among my peers in my hometown, it was a significant distinction that I was a scholarship student at a music school deep into western Fairfield county. The competition winner, who lived in the western (wealthier) part of Fairfield county, extended the reach of his preparation even farther west, to New York. I looked him up online today and saw that he had attended MIT and then had gotten a performance degree at Juilliard. He is now a professional concert pianist, known for his performances of 19th-century repertoire.

When, over the last couple of days, I researched two old friends my hometown who eventually came out as gay, I noted that both of them went to local colleges and both work in data management, one for a technical company, the other for a construction company. These seem like typically straight white male occupations for a certain group of people from my hometown.

As I look over my life a year at a time, I am surprised to note how quickly some people faded from my life who had once been quite important to me. I am also noting that I neither chose the common path of technical/business career based on a degree from a not-particularly-prestigious local college, nor did I venture into the world of professional music performance in the conventional way that my rival in the competitions did. Rather, I found a middle course in which I explored music in the context of a liberal arts degree at a prestigious college, and then worked at an entry-level job in arts management before moving on to study music from a technical, academic angle.

There are plenty of times when I feel that I have failed to break through to a higher level of visibility as performer or scholar, given what seemed to have been my potential to do so at certain points along the way in my past. However, given the nature of my background and the number of facets of it that I seem to be trying to balance, maybe I really am where I am--all things considered--meant to be.

In the meantime, I try to keep my mind engaged until such time as I begin to lose my faculties, and I hope to be able to retire when I am still in relatively good health.



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