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Ponedjeljak 21 Ševval 1440

Jun. 23rd, 2019 | 09:38 pm
music: raison d'etre - Reflecting in Shadows

Planet of the (Islamic) day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Moon

Prophet of the (Islamic) day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Adam

Planetary day and hour (Western): day of the Sun, hour of Mars

The Sun is in 2 Cancer (in my 10th house): A man bundled in fur leads a shaggy deer. (Symbol for 3 Cancer from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 17Pis35 (in my 7th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 28, The Hierarchization of the Degrees of Existence, not their Manifestation, letter Wāw, The One Who Elevates by Degrees (Rafī‘-ud-Darjāt)

Lunar phase: Disseminating - Demonstration (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About an hour ago, the Moon entered my 7th house.

To pick up on a theme from the last time I wrote, I realized this weekend that, not only is it "over" for me with respect to my place of employment, but it has been over for about the last 12 years. I have completed a few projects, I have been invited to present and to have a few articles published, etc., but fundamentally, the sense of drive and "enthusiasm" that led up to my promotion and being awarded tenure effectively dissipated soon thereafter.

One of the ideas that has occurred to me recently is that I have increasingly sensed an ancestral burden with respect to higher education and its associated professional life, as if this is a destination toward which my ancestry had been leading me. Perhaps the idea of advancing oneself through education is not much more than a 1960s American myth. In any event, this thought led me to wonder if my drive to achieve academically had been fuelled in part by the idea that it would represent a goal toward which my mother had striven but which she had not achieved because of obstacles in her family of origin. Once she passed, it seemed as if that particular impetus had lost some of its power.

If 2007 was, in fact, the year that the academic dream died for me, it would at least have represented a good run, from the time of my admission to college (a project which had been underway, in a sense, from about 30 years earlier) to achieving the rank of associate professor with tenure. Even with respect to graduate school and my area of academic specialization, it would have been about a 20-year run from the time of my first round of graduate school applications to my having been granted tenure.

People's interests and needs change over time. I can see how themes that were related to the composers whose music I have studied have remained interesting to me, even if the daily/weekly/yearly grind of academic life has worn down my enthusiasm for striving to find space for the kinds of musical projects that are genuinely of interest to me.

I think that this has been difficult to admit to myself, and therefore difficult to put into words until now. Part of the conflict may stem from the notion that being a tenured associate professor is a position of privilege (or at least is commonly perceived to be such). Admitting that I'm not really that into feels in some ways like an admission of a lack of authenticity. On the other hand, admitting the way I feel about my situation may in fact signal a deeper sense of authenticity. Overall, this has felt like one of those moments in therapy in which one settles into a realization that one has known for some time but had been resisting because of a number of vaguely sensed inner conflicts. Verbalizing it seems to bring with it an acknowledgement of exhaustion from the effort of having resisted the insight for as long as one has done, but also holds open the dimly sensed possibility of the emergence of new ways of framing one's situation while moving forward from where one is now.


Peace,

KH

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Nedjelja 13 Ševval 1440

Jun. 16th, 2019 | 07:41 pm
music: Aidan Baker - Thread / Bare

Planet of the (Islamic) day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Sun

Prophet of the (Islamic) day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Idris (Enoch)

Planetary day and hour (Western): day of the Sun, hour of Saturn

The Sun is in 25 Gemini (in my 10th house): Frost-covered trees against winter skies. (Symbol for 26 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 21Sag08 (in my 4th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 21, The Earth, letter Ṣād, The Death-Giver (Al-Mumīt)

Lunar phase: Gibbous  - Overcoming (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

This morning, the Moon entered my 4th house. About an hour after that, Mercury entered my 11th house. About an hour ago, the Moon  transited my natal Moon (in my 4th house). About an hour after sabah (fedžr), the Moon will enter its Full Moon phase.

The other day it occurred to me to review the last time that Jupiter had transited my natal Moon. I had one such transit in February and another at the beginning of June. There will be a third and final one this year in mid-October. Prior to that, however, Jupiter transited my natal Moon in early November 2007. That was just a few days after my mother entered home hospice.

In retrospect, that turned out to be a pivotal year for me. Earlier that year I had been promoted to associate professor and was awarded tenure. One of the first things I did for myself was to enroll in a correspondence course in astrology. It turned out that that course was too advanced for where I was at that time, and I did not complete it. A few years later, that astrologer died. Another thing that happened that year was that I gave the last musical performance that my mother was able to attend.

There were a number of ways that year, and the beginning of the next, spelled the beginning of the end of my time in the Amma organization. My second close friend in that organization had gone to India at the end of 2006. After he came back, our friendship seemed weakened, although I tried to maintain it nonetheless.

I recall also that the people in satsang seemed to know the right things to say during my mother's illness, but after she passed away, I felt alone and out of place with my grief. Perhaps that's a normal phase of the grief process, but I remember that it led me to feel that the time I had been investing in satsang and in friendships with Amma devotees was starting to seem like a poor investment.

Added to that were anti-Muslim prejudices in the satsang that came to the surface during the Israeli assault on Gaza in late 2007 and early 2008. I recall seeking out alternative perspectives. I began exploring Peter Wilberg's work at around that time, and I became aware of Rabbi Michael Lerner's work then as well.

Effectively, I was beginning to turn leftward, and I was also beginning to move out of a reflexively self-critical space every time I experienced a conflict of perspective with someone and into a more other-critical, self-protective space. Essentially, my mother had passed and I was beginning to give myself more permission to continue the process of growing up. This included moving--in my self-awareness--beyond the model of the nuclear family as I had known it up until that point in my life, as well as weakening my emotional attachments to surrogate family environments in which I would be able to partcipate whole-heartedly only by suppressing any thoughts or awareness that appeared to run counter to the ideologies that seemed to sustain the people within those surrogate family environments.

Although I felt pained and conflicted at the time, now I can see that this was a necessary process of growth for me.

During this time I drew closer to the work of David Sylvian, who had also been an Amma devotee for a number of years. His involvement extended to offering his home at one point to function as a New England ashram. That did not take place, and he ended up divorcing his wife, who was also a devotee. The satsang leader had only negative things to say about him, but as I became more acquainted with his work, I acknowledged its importance in helping to pave a way for me out of the "cult."

Okay, I think those are enough musings for now.


Peace,

KH

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Petak/Džuma 11 Ševval 1440

Jun. 14th, 2019 | 07:42 pm
music: Ibrahim Bilčević - Otac

Planet of the (Islamic) day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Venus

Prophet of the (Islamic) day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Joseph

Planetary day and hour (Western): day of Venus, hour of Jupiter

The Sun is in 23 Gemini (in my 10th house): Children skating over a frozen village pond. (Symbol for 24 Gemini from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 24Sco47 (in my 3rd house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 19, The Air, letter Zāy, The Living (Al-Ḥayy)

Lunar phase: Gibbous  - Overcoming (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About 20 minutes before jacija, the Moon will transit my natal Venus (in my 3rd house). About 10 minutes before izlazak sunca, the Moon will enter Sagittarius (in my 3rd house).

This is my first entry since Ramazan. Yesterday I met with a friend that I hadn't seen in several years. This is someone I had met 16 years ago. On that occasion, we met at a metaphysical bookstore before attending a Sufi zikr. Prior to that, we had corresponded in a Yahoo group that I had co-founded with someone else.

There are a lot of things that we discussed over tea and lunch, so I will just pick up on a couple of themes here. One that stuck out for me was how badly behaved some people are who are drawn to mystical and alternative spiritual pursuits. While at times I had been shocked at how some people in alternative spiritual organizations seemed to be plagued by envy of people who had more "normal," stable lives than themselves. In retrospect, these seems to be the norma rather than the exception. My denial about what seemed to be motivating some of these people seems to have kept me in friendships with them longer that was probably healthy. Of course, the prospects for meeting such people have all but dried up in recent years, so it's not a real concern of mine any more.

One of the people we discussed had been a local Sufi circle leader whose group had evidently turned pathological and then had dissolved. I was curious about him and did a little bit of online research. I noted that he had become involved with a publishing company that features writings within the genre of acid-head "wisdom." I also found some YouTube videos that featured, along with a voice-over describing a mixed bag of traditions from which he claimed to be teaching (including UFOlogy and conspiracy theories). YouTube then queued up the following video by a young Bosnian qari and singer. After the weirdness of the previous video, this pulled me immediately into a vivid heart space. I am grateful to have come to a place in which it is possible to feel a distinct change in the quality of my consciousness without needing for the sitmulus to advertise itself as something mysterious, special, or occult.


Today I went to džuma. The muezzin was a high school student. He is the best one there among his age group. Today was one of those days when I was affected by the ezan to the point of being nearly in tears.

Again, if it's possible to be pulled into a "heart" space in an open, grounded environment (rather than in a closed, somewhat self-absorbed one), why not?


Peace,

KH

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Nedjelja 16 Ša'ban 1440

Apr. 20th, 2019 | 08:49 pm

Planet of the (Islamic) day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Sun

Prophet of the (Islamic) day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Idris (Enoch)

Planetary day and hour: day of Saturn, hour of Moon

The Sun is in 0 Taurus (in my 8th house): A clear mountain stream. (Symbol for 1 Taurus from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 20Sco44 (in my 3rd house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 18, Sphere of the Ether and the Meteors, Center of Fire, letter Tā, The Seizer (Al-Qābiḍ)

Lunar phase: Full Moon - Fulfillment (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About 15 minutes after sabah, the Moon will transit my natal Venus (in my 3rd house). About a minute before noon, the Moon will enter Sagittarius (in my 3rd house).

The following is an edited version of something I wrote elsewhere. It seems to signal a potentially new phase of synthesis of my esoteric studies/exploration, reaching back to materials I first encountered several years ago:

"About 30 years ago I read what was probably the first edition of Meditations on the Tarot. Two years ago I discovered the most recent edition of Meditations (the first edition having left my library at some point) and have been saving it for a time when I hope to engage in some contemplative reading. Recently it occurred to me that I might try to read it during Ramadan , which is a time that I try to set aside from the compulsive busy-ness typically associated with my profession.

On the evening of March 30, just before going to bed, I remember browsing lightly through the new edition of Meditations. That night I had a dream in which three (possibly four) of the Major Arcana appeared in the context of a conversation I was having with a married couple who are Sufi friends. The cards that I remember were Alchemy (Temperance), The Magician (with elements of The Fool seeming to appear on the card as well), and The World. The dream had a rather fluid, initiatory vibe to it. (“Alchemy,” of course, is the way in which Haindl referred to Temperance and, according to Rachel Pollock, this reference traces its way back to Crowley, but of course the Crowley deck uses the term “Art” instead.)

The next morning I saw a post on a Tarot spread attributed to Joséphin Péladan written by Tony Louis, an acquaintance who is a well-known author on astrology and Tarot: https://tonylouis.wordpress.com/2019/03/31/the-5-card-tarot-spread-of-peladan/

This, in turn, reminded me of the Symbolism exhibition I had attended at the Guggenheim in the summer of 2017, which featured the same portrait of Péladan that Tony featured at the beginning of his blog post.

I was not convinced that the cards I had seen in my dream were intended to be a reading as such, but I was curious about possible references in the Tarot literature to the combination of those cards in particular.

The following week, while seeking out further references to Valentin Tomberg (anonymous author of the French original of Meditations) and Robert Powell (its translator into English) online, that I was reminded of a website dedicated to the study of the book. As I listened to an audio interview with Robert Powell on the website, I was struck by the reports of apparitions, etc. of Tomberg that some people have reported. I was also struck by Powell's notion of Meditations as a “living” book, possibly possessing initiatory power. When Powell described his follow-up volume, The Wandering Fool, and I examined its table of contents online, I saw that the section on Tomberg’s notes on the Major Arcana in that book ranged from Temperance to the World, with The Fool appearing immediately prior to The World. Then, later on in the interview, when Powell mentioned the references to Johannine and Petrine Christianity in the first chapter of Meditations (the chapter on the Magician), it seemed as if the series of references in my dream had come to completion."


Peace,

KH

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Četvrtak 25 Džumade-l-ula 1440

Jan. 31st, 2019 | 07:32 am
music: Troum & All Sides - Shutun

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Jupiter

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Moses

The Sun is in 11 Aquarius (in my 5th house): On a vast staircase stand people of different types, graduated upward. (Symbol for 12 Aquarius from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 23Sag48 (in my 4th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 21, The Earth, letter Ṣād, The Death-Giver (Al-Mumīt)

Lunar phase: Last Quarter - Re-Orientation (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

At about an hour after midnight, the Moon transited my natal Moon (in my 4th house). At about an hour after noon, the Moon will enter its Balsamic phase, whose keyword is Release.

I am experiencing a degree of fatigue that I find challenging, but today is the first day in some time that I hope to open up a window of time to continue writing the article I am working on. My goal has been to complete a draft by Feb 1 so that I have time to edit it in conformity with the style sheet. Over the weekend I received a style sheet for another article that is due at the end of March. I haven't yet looked at that style sheet.

I have been working slowly through the first lesson of Kelly Surtees's introductory astrology course.


Peace,

KH

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Ponedjelkjak 15 Džumade-l-ula 1440

Jan. 21st, 2019 | 07:37 am
music: Karsten Hamre - The End of the World

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Moon

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Adam

The Sun is in 1 Aquarius (in my 5th house): An unexpected thunderstorm. (Symbol for 2 Aquarius from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 5Leo30 (in my 11th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 10, The Sphere of Stations, Sky of Fixed Stars, Sun of Paradise and Roof of Hell, letter Shīn, The Powerful (Al-Muqtadīr)

Lunar phase: Full Moon - Fulfillment (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

At about 15 minutes after midnight, the Moon entered its Full Moon phase (in my 11th house). About an hour and 20 minutes after that, Venus entered my 4th house. About an hour and a half before sabah, the Moon transited my North Node (in my 11th house). About 20 minutes after ikindija, the Moon will transit my natal Mars.

This full moon was, of course, the much-publicized super blood wolf moon lunar eclipse. It did, in fact, fall on a sensitive place in my natal chart, as I have my natal lunar nodes within a few degrees of the location of the soli-lunar opposition. I also have an opposition between Mars and Saturn (the traditional malefic planets) within a few degrees of the nodal axis, all of which is square to my Sun-Neptune conjunction in Scorpio.

After taking a short trip down memory lane with respect to astrology studies and consultations from 12 years ago in my previous entry, I decided to enroll in a short self-paced astrology course at the online Astrology University. When I was browsing online to see what had become of Blaschke's astrology course (I believe his wife had taken it over after his death), I found that some pages of his website were being redirected to the Astrology University site and that promotions for books by evolutionary astrology authors were appearing on some of those pages. At first I thought Blaschke's site had been hijacked, but eventually I discovered that Astrology University is now housing some of his video lectures (but not the specific course in which I was enrolled). As I explored the site further, I saw some familiar names and faces and realized that this is a resource that brings together material on evolutionary astrology with other approaches.

My attention was drawn in particular to an introductory course by Kelly Surtees, an Australian astrologer. I decided to purchase the course and to begin it. I have a terrible track record when it comes to completing astrology courses. Either I begin a course and run out of time to complete it, or I get stuck on some aspect of it that is beyond my ability or confidence level, or I go off on tangents and never get back to the course, or I discovered a political or philosophical incompatibility with the instructor and get turned off. As I began to do the first reading for Kelly Surtees's course, I felt on familiar ground because it is an article by Greg Bogart, who is a Rudhyar-influenced astrologer-therapist. My first professional consultation was with Greg Bogart (back in 2004): I still have the cassette tape of the session (haha). He sent me one of his books gratis: in fact, it is the same book on which the assigned article was based. I had recently become curious about what he had been up to lately and came across a reference to his most recent astrology book, which I then purchased.

I am continuing to prepare for the beginning of the new semester. My syllabi are written, as are the first few assignments for my classes. I am also continuing to work on my article while keeping things moving along with the graduate program. I have been disappointed with myself for not finding time to practice over the past couple of days, but perhaps I will get back to that today.


Peace,

KH

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Četvrtak 11 Džumade-l-ula 1440

Jan. 17th, 2019 | 07:57 am
music: Caul - IV

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Jupiter

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Moses

The Sun is in 27 Capricorn (in my 5th house): A large aviary. (Symbol for 28 Capricorn from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 6Gem53 (in my 8th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 6, The Form, letter Khā, The Wise (Al-Ḥakīm)

Lunar phase: First Quarter - Action (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

Last evening, the Moon entered Gemini (in my 9th house). Overnight, Mercury entered my 5th house.

Since Jupiter entered my 4th house recently, I decided to examine its previous transits of that house. The most recent prior transit was a significant one. Because of direct and retrograde motion, Jupiter entered my 4th house twice in 2007 (and exited back into the 3rd house once before entering a second time). It first entered in February, 2007, a month or two before I was notified that I had received tenure. This would be an example of a typical Jupiterian "boon," as well as an example of the conclusion of a process previously set in motion, which is also associated with Jupiter transits to the 4th house. Between the time that Jupiter exited my 4th house by retrograde motion and the time it re-entered the 4th house, my mother had begun to experience seizures, signalling the beginning of the final stages of her brain cancer. By the time Jupiter transited my natal Moon (in my 4th house), my mother had been discharged from a rehabilitation facility and had begun home hospice care.

This period involves astrology in a couple of significant ways as well. Soon after I had been notified that I had received tenure, I decided to do something for myself by enrolling in an astrology correspondence course. The level of the course proved to be too advanced after the first assignment, but it gave me an opportunity to work in a preliminary way with Robert Blaschke, a well-known astrologer at the time (who, unfortunately, passed away a few years later). I did have the opportunity to support his work by means of the course fee and by purchasing his books, which I still have. In his first book he pays tribute to two of the pioneers of 20th-century astrology, Alan Leo and C.E.O. Carter, who were both British Theosophists. Around the time that I enrolled in Blaschke's course, I purchased used copies of a book by Leo and by Carter, which I also still have. As I returned to reading Rudhyar's The Astrology of Personality recently, I found myself looking again at the books by Leo and Carter (authors that Rudhyar also mentions). It then occurred to me that I had purchased those books as a result of browsing through Blaschke's first book. This led me to feel that I am perhaps in the process of reopening unfinished chapters in my relationship to astrology.

Another thing I recall from that period in 2007 is that I consulted with a local astrologer who indicated that there was something she "didn't like" about Jupiter entering the 4th house. She said that I should be prepared to "return home," i.e. to attend to an imminent death in the family. I just pulled the chart from this consultation from my files and I see that it took place in June of 2007, preceding the vacation that my husband and I took to Rhode Island that summer, which I believe took place in July or August. It was during the course of that vacation that I received a call from my father that my mother had begun to experience seizures and was in the hospital. I also see that this astrologer used solar-arc directions as well as transits.

Backing up now to this previous summer, I consulted with an astrologer (who happens to live in Rhode Island) and I discussed my dilemma regarding whether to invest more energy into my professional work or into pursuits such as astrology or spirituality. For the duration of the fall semester, I felt snowed under with day-to-day duties related to my job, without making much progress on either professional projects or personal studies. Toward the latter part of the present winter recess, however, I seem to be making some progress in both areas. Perhaps the question is not so much about professional work versus personal pursuits, but rather about meaningful activity versus externally-imposed chaos.


Peace,

KH

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Utorak 9 Džumade-l-ula 1440

Jan. 15th, 2019 | 08:53 am
music: Atrium Carceri - Reincarnation Chamber

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mars

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Aaron & John

The Sun is in 25 Capricorn (in my 5th house): A nature spirit dancing in the iridescent mist of a waterfall. (Symbol for 26 Capricorn from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 10Tau24 (in my 8th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 4, Al-jawhar-al-habâï, The materia prima, letter Ḥā, The Last (Al-’Ākhir)

Lunar phase: First Quarter - Action (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About an hour and a half before sabah, Jupiter entered my 4th house. In about an hour and a half, the Moon will enter my 9th house.

Even though there is not a lot of outward activity going on, this seems to be a time of subtle changes. My husband is interviewing today for a new position within his company. It is a management position, something he studiously avoided when he was in retail and corporate customer-service positions. Now that he has entered into something more of a chosen career (psychological counseling), perhaps he feels more confident in his professional abilities and ambitions.

For my part, I have been making some progress in my re-reading of Rudhyar's The Astrology of Personality. This time around, I am noticing how his work parallels in a number of respects the philosophical work I have been reading, mainly Adrian Johnston's commentaries on Žižek's writings. In reviewing Rudhyar's Chapter 6, The Dial of Houses, I was reminded that my current age, 56, is one of the pivotal ages in his 28-year progressed Ascendant (Point of Self) cycle. This has given me the idea to focus on the period from 56 to 63 years old as a traversal of the first quadrant of houses, repeating a cycle (the traversal of all of the houses) that began at birth and repeated once previously at age 28. Just before the first repetition of that cycle, I began my graduate studies in music theory. The cycle that has just ended, from 28 to 56, has been dominated by the role of music theory, first as a subject of graduate study and then as a career. Having devoted the previous cycle to these pursuits, I find myself considering the things that may have been displaced by that emphasis on education and career. While I feel a need to continue to set career-oriented goals for at least the first 7 years of the current cycle (until age 63), I want to see if I can also manage to fold in more of own interests, be they astrology or languages or Islam or whatever.

One of the things that I noticed is that I began to act on certain interests at (or soon after) previous critical periods: I followed my interest in Sufism to my first initiation during the previous traversal of the first quadrant of houses (at age 29) and I began to study astrology (and Rudhyar's work in particular) while my progressed Ascendant was traversing the second quadrant of houses (between the ages of 35 and 42). My involvement in the Amma org began near the end of the traversal of the second quadrant and continued into the traversal of the third quadrant (ages 42 to 49), which also included my achieving tenure and my mother's death. The traversal of the third quadrant also included the trip to central Europe with my father (at age 46), which restimulated a long-dormant interest in Slavic language and culture. By the time of the traversal of the 4th quadrant (ages 49 to 56), some of my academic work became more widely known (leading to some invitations to publish, present, and perform), my involvement in the Amma org waned (to be replaced by a renewed commitment to Islam and Sufism), and I began to work toward a synthesis of my interests in Slavic languages and culture with Islam by focusing my attention on Bosnian culture.

As I have reviewed some of these time periods, I have sometimes found it difficult to recall specific events in the years since the time of my involvement in the Amma org and the emotionally intense friendships that went along with that. I have also felt that my professional accomplishments have been less than they ought to have been. It occurs to me, therefore, that it might be useful to use my CV to fill in details of some of the professional accomplishments that have occurred in what seem to have been rather fallow periods socially. One of the things I am working toward is to decide whether to seek promotion to full professor, and if so, when. Reminding myself of what I have been doing, and looking for trends and turning points within that, may help me chart a more realistic and achievable path forward. It is also possible that I may grow increasingly comfortable with the idea of satisfying myself more with pursuits that are not related to professional accomplishments, and accepting the limitations that that may bring to bear on my professional life.


Peace,

KH

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Subota 6 Džumade-l-ula 1440

Jan. 12th, 2019 | 06:36 am
music: Torn from Beyond - If the View Freezes

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Saturn

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Abraham

The Sun is in 21 Capricorn (in my 5th house): By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character. (Symbol for 22 Capricorn from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 1Ari39 (in my 7th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 1, The First Intellect, The Pen, letter ’Alif, Divine Essence (Al-Badī‘)

Lunar phase: Crescent - Expansion (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About 3 hours ago, the Moon entered Aries (in my 7th house).

Preparing to return to campus for the fourth day of admissions testing (the second day of the second pair of days). Wish I didn't feel so tired. Oh, well.


Peace,

KH

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Utorak 2 Džumade-l-ula 1440

Jan. 8th, 2019 | 05:56 am
music: Mindcrosser - To the Person Who Finds Me Dead

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mars

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Aaron & John

The Sun is in 17 Capricorn (in my 4th house): The Union Jack flag flies from a British warship. (Symbol for 18 Capricorn from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 13Aqu53 (in my 5th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 25, The Angels, letter Fā, The Strong (Al-Qawī)

Lunar phase: New Moon - Emergence (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

There have been no significant transits, ingresses, etc., since akšam.

I went to New Haven yesterday. It was cold. I had my soup and mini-loaf of bread. I also had some French roast and a not-so-great cookie at a favorite coffee shop. Screamed in the car over things that make me angry in my department.

Had a bizarre dream this morning in which a deceased music theorist visited me at my parents' house (my mother has been deceased for 11 years). He became teary-eyed when I asked him how it felt to leave Harvard. I told him that I wish I didn't dislike my department so much. I told him that I wondered what it would be like to leave my department, should that happen voluntarily. (By this point I was in the process of walking with him so that he could catch a bus.) He offered to do a Tarot reading on a deck I had never heard of before and suggested we go back into the house to do that. He began to enter the basement from a door that led to the driveway. As he did that, I pulled an Angel Tarot deck from my right pocket. Then the dream ended.


Peace,

KH

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