Khalid Hussain (khalid_hussain) wrote,
Khalid Hussain

Lunar journal Jan-Feb 2015 day 17 (Rabi' ath-Thani 15 1436)

The Moon entered Virgo around 12:45 a.m. and it will transit my natal Uranus in a few seconds.

I'm not sure if this could be attributed to Virgo, but last night I woke up to pee and then had some trouble falling back to sleep. At one point I realized that I was feeling self-critical about feeling angry at some people from the university. (Criticism, including excessive self-crticism, are traditionally associated with Virgo. It's like discernment as an auto-immune disorder.) Eventually I told myself that my anger would not kill them, nor would it harm them (unless I acted it out forcefully). So what if I was feeling angry? Some people were showing (as usual) complete disregard for my self-sacrificial hard work, so fuck them! ;-)

Eventually, easing up on the self-criticism (which only tends to further exacerbate the charged nature of the original anger) was the most direct path to allowing whatever my feelings and thoughts were to reintegrate themselves into my experience and to lose their urgency. I then fell into a deep sleep with lots of dreams.


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