Khalid Hussain (khalid_hussain) wrote,
Khalid Hussain

Utorak, 20 Ramazan, 1436

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mars

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Aaron & John

The Sun is in 14 Cancer (in my 10th house): A fat, smiling chef lifts the cover of a silver platter and presents a suckling pig to a group of appreciative diners. (Symbol for 15 Cancer from Martin Goldsmith, The Zodiac by Degrees, 2nd ed.)

The Moon has passed through the 2nd decan of Pisces (moving from my 6th into my 7th house): awakening from the dream; getting one's bearings. It is now in the 3rd decan of Pisces (in my 7th house): the timeless soul crucified in time and space; old meets new. (Keywords from Martin Goldsmith, Moon Phases: A Symbolic Key)

The Sun and Moon are currently in their 19th phase (the Moon is 120 to 110 degrees behind the Sun): The Wise Serpent. Image: Raggle-taggle troupe of travelling actors perform a medieval morality play; Eve and the serpent argue over the merits of eating the forbidden fruit. (Symbols from Goldsmith, Moon Phases)

Slightly before Zuhr (Podne), the Moon will enter Aries (in my 7th house).

A quiet day working at home. My husband was off from work.

In reading accounts of people's Ramadan experiences online (mainly through blog posts and articles shared on FB), I am gaining a sense of how my experiences fit into a larger picture. Most of the posts are by women, and some are by GLBT people. One thing that struck me as I read about a GLBT iftar group in NYC is that, when I spend time with the sufis that I have met about an hour from where I live, I am not able to experience the sense of common endeavor that some of the people in the iftar group described. I find the idea of attending a zikr that is held inflexibly at the same hour year round, even when that conflicts with Maghrib (Akšam), to be impractical. (Truth be told, I'm doing 12-14-hour fasts this year. If, however, I knew ahead of time that there would likely be an iftar at the traditional time, I would make adjustments to my schedule accordingly, or just fast longer on that day.) The one time (prior to Ramadan) whenI was visiting these sufis and the end of the zikr fell within the time period for Maghrib, they didn't suggest that we perform it, and I let it go and just prayed Maghrib and Isha combined when I got home.

I'm coming to a place where, even when I go through the effort to reify or enrich my experiences through social participation, I feel a need to be honest with myself that the opportunities that I have been able to find so far add up to a fragmentary picture that is neither completely comfortable nor completely satisfactory in any one of its dimensions. My priority is on the integrity of my own experience, to the extent that I can manage that. If I can incorporate contact with others in ways that do not compromise me too badly, and that sometimes seem to add to the quality of my experiences, so be it. If not, then at least I know what I am capable of doing on my own.



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