Khalid Hussain (khalid_hussain) wrote,
Khalid Hussain

Utorak 3 Ševval 1438

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mars

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Aaron & John

The Sun is in 6 Cancer (in my 10th house): Two nature spirits dancing under the moonlight. (Symbol for 7 Cancer from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 28Leo36 (in my 12th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 12, The Second Sky, Sky of Jupiter and House of Moses, letter Ḍād, The Knowing (Al-‘Alīm).

Lunar phase: Crescent - Expansion (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About 10 minutes after akšam (magrib), the Moon will enter Virgo (in my 12th house). About a half hour before izlazak Sunca (šuruk), the Moon will transit my natal Uranus (in my 12th house). About 5 minutes after izlazak Sunca (šuruk), the Moon will transit my natal Pluto (in my 12th house).

I haven't written in about a month (not that anyone reads what I write anyway). In fact, the lunar mansion and lunar phase are what they were the last time I wrote.

I fasted for Ramazan, attended džuma weekly, attended teravih for Laylat ul-Qadr, and attended bajram ('eid) prayer. I didn't attend any iftars at the mosque because my experiences with doing that last year were interesting but somewhat awkward.

The "liberal" mosque in Germany has received quite a bit of attention in the news. The imam at the Bosnian mosque seems to have been alluding to the increasing prevalence of, and publicity around, progressive mosque communities by making negative remarks about homosexuality, women leading prayers, and liberalism generally. I'm not sure if these are his personal convictions or if there is some pressure within the Bosnian-American religious leadership to "offer guidance" on these issues. Along with the reinforcement of mainstream conservative Islamic perspectives, I note an absence of critique of obvious abuses of Islamic traditions among militant extremist groups. It appears to be a case of trying to maintain control by denigrating vulnerable progressive subcommunities within Islam rather than taking a stand against obvious abuses of power.

I have kept quiet about the imam's criticisms of those progressives who are receiving public attention because I don't want to appear to be inviting people in my environment to discourage me from attending. It is paradoxical perhaps, given the struggles I have had to contend with from my conservative Catholic mother, that I don't immediately boycott the Bosnian mosque. On the other hand, there is something about just showing up and taking my place as a man among other men that seems to be helping me to heal somewhat around issues of, as it were, "socially constructed masculinity." The other men in the mosque either leave me to occupy my space or including me in greetings that they also share with others, and somehow that is good enough for now.

Today I went to Rosen for the first time since before Ramazan. As we were exploring a place along my spine that felt internally as if it were knotted or somewhat ridged, it began to open up and I had a quick series of visions of myself praying at the mosque. That helped to open up an experience of inner space and integration that had been missing when I had arrived for the session. It seems that there are aspects of Islamic ritual that are inscribed positively within my body, despite whatever ideological or political differences I may have with aspects of the public expression of Islam. Interestingly in this connection, I have begun to read Scott Kugle's book about the body in Islam.

I have a few pages left and then I will be finished with my reading of the Mathnavi. Reading several hundred verses a day became a central element of my spiritual practice during Ramazan. It is a difficult and, in some ways, an offensive and prejudiced text, but it does seem to contain some practical advice for staying with the twists and turns of one's path. I think that I have achieved some healing of issues related to my spiritual path through studying it. I have also found it to be healing to read Mark Sedwick's book on Traditionalism, with which I am almost through.

Today I had that the thought that I might be able to convert a portion of an article that has been in a stuck place into a conference presentation for next season. I hope to begin to pursue that within the next week or so.



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