Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Adam
The Sun is in 4 Cancer (in my 10th house): At a railroad crossing, an automobile is wrecked by a train. (Symbol for 5 Cancer from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)
The Moon is at 5Sag40 (in my 3rd house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 20, The Water, letter Sīn, The Life-Giver (Al-Muḥyī)
Lunar phase: Gibbous - Overcoming (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)
There are no significant transits or progressions for the remainder of today.
Obviously, I was away from writing during the second half of Ramazan. I took fuller advantage of the opportunity to participate in teravih than I had done in the past, an I am glad that I did. Following Ramazan, my father came to visit for a few days. With Ramazan and my father's visit behind me, I am feeling that I am moving more definitively into the rest of my summer.
I have completed my perusal of Forrest's Yesterday's Sky, and feel that I have benefited from doing that. One thing that I am coming away from that experience with is the idea that karmic processes are larger than my particular family of origin, my friendships, my relationships, or my job. Rather than faulting others so much for being wilfully uncooperative with respect to my needs, I am more willing to consider the perspective that there are karmic processes playing themselves out in everyone's lives. Somtimes this leads to mutual support, but often to mutual antagonism. Another thing I gaine by working through his book is a deeper consideration of Uranus as a significant karmic factor for me astrologically, since it is the ruler of my Aquarius south node.
I am returning now to Sullivan's book midlife and aging. I am continuing in Chapter 7, A Meeting at the Crossroads. The section I am on is Age Forty-two: Neptune Square Neptune: Beautiful Dreamer. Because of its retrograde motions, Neptune square its natal position five times in 2003-04: D on Apr 22, 2003; Rx on Jun 8, 2003; D on Feb 6, 2004; R on Sep 13, 2004; and D on Dec 2, 2004. The Rx transits coincide fairly precisely with dates that were significant in my friendship with X: we met for coffee on (if I recall correctly) Jun 9, 2003 an we reconciled (following a period of separation) on Sep 13, 2004. This is supposed to be a time in which one questions what happened to one's youthful ideals. Clearly, my involvement in the Amma org signalled a ramping up of the idea of pursuing a spiritual path. In my case these transits occurred when I was between the ages of 40.5 and 42, about a year an a half ahead of the schedule described by Sullivan (42 to 43.5). This period is often characterized by a sense of dissolution and corrosion of one's hard-won ego identity and the accomplishments associated with it. I experienced that challenge at that time and, generally speaking, I reveled in it, perhaps because it give vivid expression to my natal Sun-Neptune conjunction as well as stimulating my natal Neptune on its own.
Addendum: I have just read the section in Chapter 7 of Sullivan's book on the Pluto square to its natal position. Because of the irregular orbit of Pluto, this square occurs at significantly different ages for different generations. For the Pluto in Virgo generation, of which I am a part, it tended to occur earlier than some of the other generic midlife cycles. I experienced the Pluto square between Jan 7 and Nov 5, 2000. That was a year of intensified spiritual search as I made efforts to find a tariqat in which I could hopefully follow up on the intense experience of initiation that I had had in 1992 in the Nimatullahi order, which didn't work out to be a tariqat in which I could settle. I also see the Pluto square as a forerunner of some of the significant changes that would come later, such as my relocation, my mother's illness, and the spiritual (Neptune square) crisis (Uranus opposition) of my early 40s. Pluto entered my 4th house in 2001, which was when I submitted applications for the job that I eventually took here. This was followed by a significant relocation and significant changes in my family.