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Utorak 9 Džumade-l-ula 1440

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Jan. 15th, 2019 | 08:53 am
music: Atrium Carceri - Reincarnation Chamber

Planet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Mars

Prophet of the day (according to Ibn 'Arabi): Aaron & John

The Sun is in 25 Capricorn (in my 5th house): A nature spirit dancing in the iridescent mist of a waterfall. (Symbol for 26 Capricorn from Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala)

The Moon is at 10Tau24 (in my 8th house). Lunar mansion (according to Ibn 'Arabi): 4, Al-jawhar-al-habâï, The materia prima, letter Ḥā, The Last (Al-’Ākhir)

Lunar phase: First Quarter - Action (phase names and keywords from Dane Rudhyar, The Lunation Cycle)

About an hour and a half before sabah, Jupiter entered my 4th house. In about an hour and a half, the Moon will enter my 9th house.

Even though there is not a lot of outward activity going on, this seems to be a time of subtle changes. My husband is interviewing today for a new position within his company. It is a management position, something he studiously avoided when he was in retail and corporate customer-service positions. Now that he has entered into something more of a chosen career (psychological counseling), perhaps he feels more confident in his professional abilities and ambitions.

For my part, I have been making some progress in my re-reading of Rudhyar's The Astrology of Personality. This time around, I am noticing how his work parallels in a number of respects the philosophical work I have been reading, mainly Adrian Johnston's commentaries on Žižek's writings. In reviewing Rudhyar's Chapter 6, The Dial of Houses, I was reminded that my current age, 56, is one of the pivotal ages in his 28-year progressed Ascendant (Point of Self) cycle. This has given me the idea to focus on the period from 56 to 63 years old as a traversal of the first quadrant of houses, repeating a cycle (the traversal of all of the houses) that began at birth and repeated once previously at age 28. Just before the first repetition of that cycle, I began my graduate studies in music theory. The cycle that has just ended, from 28 to 56, has been dominated by the role of music theory, first as a subject of graduate study and then as a career. Having devoted the previous cycle to these pursuits, I find myself considering the things that may have been displaced by that emphasis on education and career. While I feel a need to continue to set career-oriented goals for at least the first 7 years of the current cycle (until age 63), I want to see if I can also manage to fold in more of own interests, be they astrology or languages or Islam or whatever.

One of the things that I noticed is that I began to act on certain interests at (or soon after) previous critical periods: I followed my interest in Sufism to my first initiation during the previous traversal of the first quadrant of houses (at age 29) and I began to study astrology (and Rudhyar's work in particular) while my progressed Ascendant was traversing the second quadrant of houses (between the ages of 35 and 42). My involvement in the Amma org began near the end of the traversal of the second quadrant and continued into the traversal of the third quadrant (ages 42 to 49), which also included my achieving tenure and my mother's death. The traversal of the third quadrant also included the trip to central Europe with my father (at age 46), which restimulated a long-dormant interest in Slavic language and culture. By the time of the traversal of the 4th quadrant (ages 49 to 56), some of my academic work became more widely known (leading to some invitations to publish, present, and perform), my involvement in the Amma org waned (to be replaced by a renewed commitment to Islam and Sufism), and I began to work toward a synthesis of my interests in Slavic languages and culture with Islam by focusing my attention on Bosnian culture.

As I have reviewed some of these time periods, I have sometimes found it difficult to recall specific events in the years since the time of my involvement in the Amma org and the emotionally intense friendships that went along with that. I have also felt that my professional accomplishments have been less than they ought to have been. It occurs to me, therefore, that it might be useful to use my CV to fill in details of some of the professional accomplishments that have occurred in what seem to have been rather fallow periods socially. One of the things I am working toward is to decide whether to seek promotion to full professor, and if so, when. Reminding myself of what I have been doing, and looking for trends and turning points within that, may help me chart a more realistic and achievable path forward. It is also possible that I may grow increasingly comfortable with the idea of satisfying myself more with pursuits that are not related to professional accomplishments, and accepting the limitations that that may bring to bear on my professional life.


Peace,

KH

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