So I felt wounded when my communication was not received as I would have liked. No surprise, really.
Inflaming the situation somewhat is the fact that Chiron in the sky is closing in on its position in my birth chart. The "Chiron return" is known to occur at about age 50.
I'm also beginning to think that part of my evident disdain of aspects of my work situation may have to do with my sense that my place of work needs to be, in some respects, a sacred space. It needs to be a space for the communication of higher truths, not a place for careerist opportunism or a place for being a nerd over the latest (conservative) trends in one's profession.
Part of my disdaining a kind of hyperactive, control-oriented approach to the workplace may have to do with the fact that its sacredness is currently being highlighted by Neptune's recent entry into its home sign of Pisces, which is in my sixth house. Jupiter is in Pisces (one of its traditional home signs) in my natal chart, and eventually Neptune will meet up with my natal Jupiter in the sixth house.
So, if I am feeling pulled inward and am trying to find ways to be "on retreat" even as I remain active in my profession, it may be because some part of me is sensing that, in order to achieve a deeper degree of healing (Chiron), I need to surrender to some rather slow movements of highly spiritual entites (Neptune, Chiron) through my experience of the work place. Fortunately, all of these entities--Neptune, Jupiter, and Chiron--can be rather subtle in their manifestations, so it may not be necessary to have a severe outward break with the status quo in order to surrender to their energies. In fact, maintaining the status quo with a sense of moderate discipline may provide just the right outer cover while the necessary inner work runs its course.
Om Kreem Kalyai Namaha,