I feel as if there is some letting go going on. It feels as if I'm preparing the way for the next decade of my life. (I turn 50 in November.) I feel a bit stunned when I think of the shocks I experienced near the beginning of my 20s, 30s, and 40s, and in a sense I'm dreading potential losses (or "adjustments") that may occur in my early 50s.
This week I watched a few episodes of Michael Palin's The New Europe via Netflix. It was produced before the big economic crises of the late '00s, so it understandably displays a quaint sense of optimism regarding post-Communist Central and Eastern Europe. The segment on Moldova was particularly affecting.
I became curious as to what has been going on regarding gay issues in Slovakia. I found reference of the first Gay Pride festival in Bratislava in 2010--the year after I visited there. It was marred by a violent counterdemonstration, but the following two years seem to have come off okay.
In my search I came across the following short film, which was a senior project by a student at a technical university in Banská Bystrica, which was the site of a heroic (but doomed) resistance movement against the Nazi occupation in the 40s. There is a modernist monument to the resistance fighters in the city, which is visible during a scene in the film (around 13:30). It's a 15-minute coming-out story involving two students. Selections from Linkin Park's A Thousand Suns album serve to set the mood. I knew of Linkin Park, but thought of them as bratty and brash: I hadn't known that they had done such emo kind of work. (I've read up on the album, and evidently they took some stylistic risks that polarized the reception to it.) Keeping in mind that this is student work, I have to admit that I got drawn into it. It pushed some buttons for me. Maybe it's time for me to take stock of some things, and viewing gay short films can act as a trigger for some kind of emotional healing. (If the English subtitles don't come up automatically, hitting CC below the screen should activate them.)
There are a couple of other affecting short films I came across through following suggestions on the sidebars from YouTube. Maybe some other time.
Om Kreem Kalyai Namaha,